how many times??

how many times have we tell ourself
to not procrastinate
to not waste your precious time
to let off the wicked pass and look to the future
to be a better person

and how many times had we failed on doing so
bcoz life is so comfortable and we don't have to work as hard as our parents
bcoz being lazy is so appealing
bcoz lying on the bed doing nothing is so enjoyful
bcoz watching tvs and playing computer games is the best ever time killers

sick of myself
sick of this place
sick of this world
sick of this mentality

i just wanna kill myself..