some test....

You Scored as Existentialist Existentialism emphasizes human capability. There is no greater power interfering with life and thus it is up to us to make things happen. Sometimes considered a negative and depressing world view, your optimism towards human accomplishment is immense. Mankind is condemned to be free and must accept the responsibility. Existentialist 75% Cultural Creative 75% Romanticist 69% Fundamentalist 63% Postmodernist 56% Idealist 50% Materialist 38% Modernist 31%

yahuu...finally ^_^

yesh!!

finally this hellish week is over
3 assignment and 2 exams
except 1 exam wasn't as smooth, i aced the other 4
^_^ satisfaction!!!perfection!!!
nyways, was helping my cozie to move
and i was wearing a 4 pounds weight on both of my ankle
that was really stressful...
but it is good to train myself!!!
ang-gaga!!!!
*cute version of a bad dream*
i had a really bad dream 2 days ago
it has something to do with my family
i was terrified, sweating when i woke up
and the 1st thing i do is to call home straight away
i have a very strong sixth sense
far more superior than normal males
luckily nothing wrong or wicked happened
thank god...
dad, i am so glad you are alright...
*a dreamcatcher*
well, it brings you good dreams, legend says:
"Good dreams pass through the center hole to the sleeping person.
The bad dreams are trapped in the web, where they perish in the light of dawn."
but duh...itz just a legend
but somehow i do have really good dreams
recently, may sound ridiculous but it really does prevail
where the cold war ended and we forgave each other for our silliness
even my dreamcatcher tells me...wei, time to appologize
be a man
xoxo

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
31/10/2008
8:13pm

4 down, 1 to go

@.@

4 down (1 midterm, 3 assignments) 1 to go..

wuhuu, next week only 1 midterm coming up
itz gonna be a more relaxing weekend for mi
lose 2 kgs just for the week due to
1) eat less
2) study a lot
3) stay at school a lot
4) stress
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the finish line is so near yet so far
when the midterm for next week is done
i can finally be a little more carefree for mi life
but for now, it is always hardworking mode
zzz...
elaine and kuen*2 graduated from the school
and kuen*2 is going to Calgary
sure gonna miss dis sha da jie
she is always being nice to me no matter how i bully her
blur queen lol
and also her mum coz her mum say i am leng chai *sigh
not quite for now, but will work hard to reach that level ;)
^_^
anyways, take care kuen kuen!!!
gonna miss u like you miss me xP
xoxo

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
30/10/2008
10:39pm

tired...but still excited!~!

maybe i shouldn't be blogging at this crisis moment
but anyways...
went to safeway ice cream factory
where they manufacture lucerne ice cream
gone thru the sanitation, freezing, storage, critical point control stuff
@.@ it is really not an easy task to manage all this stuff
but anyways, we got a lot of free ice cream, which make the trip worthwhile
i need to do extra exercise bcoz i really have too much 2day xP
and the storage area visit is totally epic
we are in there wif lab coats and hair nets where the temp was -20..
(WHERES MY WINTER ATTIRES???)That was in everyones mind
zzz, the fearless 7 team, made it alive after staying in the storage area for 5 minutes
^_^
hardworking mode on
was in the school whole day and done my assignment for tmr and day after
and studied hard for my midterms
for tmr, and one on friday
jia you!!! you can do it!!!
i need luck though...xP
xoxo

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
29/10/2008
9:42pm

pops, happy birthday!!~~!!

i was wondering, y there is only “世上只有妈妈好”
what about dad???
anyways, my blog today is all for my pops
Happy Birthday Dad!!!
You are the greatest dad one can ever have..
Handsome, Eng Tao, Cool, Funny, Smart, Wise...
Too much good stuff to talk about you.
You just rock inside out!!!
I love you dad, and I wish you have a very happy 48th years old birthday!!!
I will follow up with a poem, not today though...
^_^, xoxo
Lastly, share your handsome face here in my blog:
dad..
u r always the most handsome and eng tao person in the family
cheerss!!~~

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
28/10/2008
10:13pm

@#%#!!*&#***@!

zzz...@#%#!!*&#***@!
drowning within the sea of homework...
hopefully it will go better after this week...
T.T
taking down notes for macronutrients
jotting down questions i am gonna ask for seminar
revising sin sin's proposal
thinking of my new storyline for my upcoming story, battle between the lone wolf and the soaring dragon
chatting wif biao di shao
chatting and doing crazy stuff wif my beloved bro
revising sensory evaluation assignment...
really @.@
however, it proves i am really good in multi-tasking
coz all of my job for the day is done
and i made people happy
=)

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
27/10/2008
8:56pm

movie star??in my dreams man >.<

mentioned something about movie acting yesterday
since my friend was a director for a small acting crew in my school
he was considering to add me to the squad for a minor character
in near future, and his gf keep on convincing him to add me into the crew

say i have the talent and potential to be a great actor...
>.<

my all time favorite Johnny Depp
just watched his old movie Donnie Brasco
and watched POTC 1,2,3 , Sweedney Todd, Corpse Bride
i ma planning to watch Secret Window in near future too
the guy got the talent and potential to be the next Oscar winner
salutes to you Captain Jack Sparrow
you are the man!!
and....
in the future will it be my face on the magazine cover?? xP

Jessica Alba
Sweet, sexy, hot, pretty...
wow, she is my all-time favorite female actress
1st time I fall in love with her is during...
sin city, then started to watch a lot of her movies
she is one the sweetest ever
^.^
love ya alba xoxo
lastly, when am i gonna receive my throphy when i get into acting..??!!?
PONG!!!! Wake up lar mr.br!an
having a dream is good, but not this kind of dream...xP
So i am best to be a "Mafia"~
Satto Capo "br!an"
lol

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
26/10/2008
8:25pm

pot luck

today had a pot luck at chun yan's place
meet a lot of friends and have fun hanging out
a friend even wanted to introduce a girl in my faculty to me
since he is a drama producer for the Chinese students
i recommended myself to be part of his movie in the future
just for fun, not saying myself having great talents in acting
but who knows, i might be turned into a big star?? xP
anyways damn tired, gonna go to sleep
and today was quite effective
finished a very hard assignment which is due in 5 days
xoxo

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
25/10/2008
11:13pm

making ice cream!!!

Today's lab was one of the best ever.
Why?? We get to make ice cream and eventually tasted it!!!
Let all the pictures do the narrating!!

ops, cant see clearly the inside

there you go
it is a total mixture of:
523.26g cream
150.00g white sugar
37.95g skim milk powder
288.79g 2% milk
and 1ml of vanilla extract

this is the machine for mixing the ice cream

this is the end product
look soggy and soft, but it is really sweet and tasty!!

the face of satisfaction ^_^
people doing lab, i ma busy taking pictures
too excited
anyways, punished myself to run 45 minutes in the gym
and walk home which used up 15 minutes
because i ate something SWEET 2day
>.<

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
24/10/2008
10:56pm

special someone...

i
a special someone doesn't come out of nowhere
they exist for a reason at a specific time
someone who is regarded special
don't have to be a perfect person
having the best of character, look, and social status
some doubt themselves for being special
due to their true color which is far too obvious for themselves
but no matter what, YOU are special to me
now, future and always

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
23/10/2008
8:18pm

LOSER!!!!

I am such a loser today...
Because I can't finish my midterm for HACCP course!!!!!
T.T

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
22/10/2008
10:34pm

sanity...is for the weak, that's why I ma insane XD

Today's sensory evaluation lab was a blast
Instead of liquids with unknown property, today we get to test solid food instead!!
They aren't the best, but so far this is the best lab section ever attended
Thumbs up for the lab coordinators
You guys rockzz!!!

After a one and a half month of continuous effort
I can proudly say that I lose a lot of extra fats residing in my body
1 n 1/2 month leading towards a lose of 10kgs or 22lbs
This is crazy!!!
I go from:

:(
sad face
To
:)
happy face

and somehow, I started to think...
that, who the hell am I really living for
giving my best for
sworn to protect
he/she/it..or myself???
used to be I never determine whats best for me
always thinking of how to make other's happy and feel protected
like knight shed in shinny armor sworn to protect

a holy knight soaring from heaven itself
:)
but now...
i ma starting to lose that sensation
when people won't appreciate you even though you care so much for them
or just take you for granted
i ma not great of a person
feelings fade like nothing
no matter how hard you try to maintain it
close relationships are lies
and hope is the first step to the road of disappointment
lol
duno y crap so much today..
on oh ya, biao di sao
thanks for your zhu fu
i successfully gave a perfect presentation today
can't get 100%, but 85% should can ba
wanna show my appreciation to you here
:)
gtg, ciaozz

by
your and only yours truly
br!an
at
21/10/2008
8:19pm

motivation pushing me onwards and onwards

part of the sensation you get from exercising
is the total satisfaction you gain physically and mentally
refreshed, feeling strong and clear-minded to start the day
the morning breeze is so cool and enlightening
can feel it spread through every part of my body
flowing freely inside out...
aah..the great outdoor~~
this morning after a brief chat in msn, went on for a jog outside
when the temperature is at...-2'c for 20 minutes
chilly...ouch....

8kgs to go...you can do it and you know it!!!

blessed...
feel so blessed today...
i learned my lesson today...
don't do things too over
^_^
and also blessed that i can lost so much weight
in such a short duration of time without neglecting my personal health
but however, today my used to be tight fit jean
keep on "dragging me down" while i tried to "pulling her up"
argh...i need new clothings...
>.< lastly, trigger and bullets..
sometimes humans are like bullets residing in a pistol
not motivated, they will just procastinate, get lazy, slacking
just like the bullet in a nut shell pistol, useless
until the trigger is pulled, which for human, the motivation is applied
bullet will do the job well when it hits the target (trigger pulled)
but for us humans, man...
they do need more than just motivation to keep going
(have to kick and push and tickle and hit them to make sure they keep moving)
*sigh...

presentation tmr, need blessings^^
gtg ppl, ciaoz..

by
yours and only yours truly
br!an
at
20/10/08
8:10am

new skin new style...my way...

walking down the path full of fallen leaves
my way to the gym was cherished by mother nature itself
ever-flowing river, ever-blueish skies, ever-refreshing O2
even though all will be covered by pure white snow in the upcoming month
nothing stops me from loving mother nature itself
when i am upset, disappointed, down and utterly sad
i will walk down to a peaceful surrounding of tress and grass
because mother nature is always there to embrace me
absorbing all my negative aspects without a single thought

out of all different genres of music
one that i love and appreciate most is the pure piano music
too bad, i was never given a chance to practice, learn and know more about piano
it would be a splendid and romantic sight
when i can play upon a tune so nicely for my beloved one
if i am given a chance, i wont hesitate to learn playing piano
and seriously i will do it
Hope...
hope is a relatively powerful thought
that can bring you to places that you can never ever imagine
with a hope, and strong thought in your mind, you are indestructible
nobody can stop you in your path until you achieve what you really HOPE for
you are strong and cleansed yourself from the feeble weak mind that haunts u at the pass
i hate people who lose hope, giving up themselves to the pass, unforgettable nightmare
which they never want to walk out of it
they have to know one thing, and one really important thing
that there is always someone there willingly to sacrifice themselves to bore the burden
to share the pain, to face the challenge in the future, and to live with the pass nightmare
they have to know, they will never walk alone
there will always be a guardian angel there to embrace them, for them to walk out of the shadow

Lastly, updated my blog skin,has a bio hazard to it so watch out people. Added a new html script which has one of the best playlist I ever heard in my life, and also a change of style in blogging.PMS will be my word of wisdom of the month, cause I have..1 month and 11 days to go to achieve my goal..working hard man!!

PMS
Physically active - stay strong so you can protect your love ones
Mentally aware - wisdom from experience will teach and show you the path
Spiritually peaceful - pass events are lessons, teach you how to be peaceful

by
yours and only yours truly
br!an
at
19/10/08
8:41pm

shh....

shh....yes miss.winner...u win and own it all...i ma a big big time mr.loser...u won't stop calling me that...and i finally made you laugh like crazy...恐龙and孔龙。。。LoL。。。wat about genting???xP...but shh..u took away my 3 hours 6 minutes and 13 seconds...all is recorded in skype...got prove somemore...but shh...don't tell anyone...shh...coz later got one eng tao will damn damn jelous...=P

and also aa...miss shh...i uploaded the baked chicken picture...u also saw me eating it tat other day right??
there you go, the before:

the after:

u know what, brotherhood rocxxxxxxx!!!

and weighted myself again..now at 101kgs..hmm..got 6-11kgs left to get rid off..
and found some really good work out to work on...
jia you for miself..i can do it..and i know lar, motivation keeps pushing me, azaza!!!
gtg guys,
ciaozz

experience gives you wisdom

years of studies in a country so different from my own
time passed by and experience cumulated from various events
i learn of that the growing up process is a really tough and challenging experience
looking through other's mind is a fantastic ability to have
i would say, it is the deep observation of one's action and mind, and most importantly, understand your own that give yourself the wisdom upon understanding other's intention even though they try their best to hide it
too much had i see, and too much had i hear
one single body language of yours, will make you naked intention exposed even when you try your best to hide your it
instinct does not exist in this world for no good reason
and i always trust my instinct to be part of my guidance of life
and i can sense the uprising, disgusting feeling before something bad happened
it is like, there are signs to warn me, to prevent me from dropping into the icy deep cold pit of darkness
is it a gift?
or is it a curse?
the answer lie between yourself
because you choose what to believe
and what not too
my traumatic pass was hidden from me for a good reason
and re-expose again also for a good reason
life is a puzzle
you just have to complete the final piece
before you actually realize yourself

gtg,ciaoz..

signed off**~^

Ground Zero...Target destroyed...no more d-tox!!!

ok...
so today..
i am finally done...
wif d-tox!!!
can drink milk ady start tmr..
miss milk like crazy
also miss milk milk like crazy =P

k so malaysian time is 17/10/2008
even though canada time is 16/10/2008
it is still my beloved god daughter's bday
so im here, wanting to wish her happy birthday
and write something for her
sometimes it is more meaningful to write about or for others in yer blog
every time write about yourself will be kinda dry and bored in the long term
so here goes~~

A friendship was born years ago
though not knowing the exact date when it starts
But I ma certain all shall not fade
as our friendship will be ever lasting
Preserved till our very last breath on earth

the memory of that one slap remained fresh
Though I know it was just plainly for fun
maybe I was still lost having fun in my own imagination
The blow you landed was intended to wake me up
leaving me stunned staring blankly on you

Years had pass and we reside in two totally different worlds
time makes us tougher and more endurable to the harsh environment
Fairy tales and fantasy serve as sweet memories to you and I
but certainly there is something that din't change
Which is the ever-lasting bond of friendship that tied us together

more will come as time never stop and let us take a break
For we will face more challenge and hardship in life
when your legs are dead lock in an unknown region in the globe
Why not re-open the golden seal chest within the deepest part of your heart
and cherish the sweet memory we once shared long time passed

Thanks for being a quite special figure in my life.
Happy birthday to you, and wish you all the best for all your future undertaking
^_^

1 day...1 more...

1

today
is day 11
that means...
one more day, will say gudbye to this greeny 12 days
everyday eating so healthy, my weight goes from 108kgs-103kgs (day 11 weight)
5kgs, or 11.2lbs is lost..
im closer to my goal
i can do it
^^

gtg, assignment calling..
will post pic of my hand-baked chicken tmr..
ciaoz

signed off**~^

Drink drink drinK...till bloadted...

2

Just want to make the number 2 looks beautiful 2day..
2 more days in front of me to go pass, then I will be off detox.
A countdown for my detox program, really funny..
It is just a bloody 12 days program!!!

Anyways, today a lot of hw to do...
argh mode activated!!!
and still chat so much wif cousin in law non-stop...
brian brian...
CONTROL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH*@!#$$##@!@!~~~
Wanna shout at the top of my lungs~~
LoL...

gtg, ciaoz~~

signed off**~^

^My life^ <*pass & CURRENT*> ^_^

Once upon a time, when everything was dark and gloomy...

My life was Gloomy and Grey
Where thunder storms and horrendous tidal waves ramming through my defenseless body
And all once that binded my soul and body are scattered to tiny little pieces
Losing everything within the catastrophic disasters that were upon me
I chanted a silent prayer
But no glorious radiance from an angel shined upon me

My life was Shadowy and Black
Where the mist of shadow and endless torment from hell engulfing my weak feeble mind
And all once guarded my sanity were lost forever in the darkness
Losing everything within the unforeseen pit of darkness all around me
I yelled insanely in the darkness
But nothing but hell itself was laughing on my pathetic-ness

Then, it dramatically changed when Adam meets Eve,

My life is Glorious and Golden
Where the mighty sun and humble moon bestowed their radiance indiscriminately upon me
And all what once scattered around the globe had been whole again
Regaining my once lost glory within the hideous nightmare of myself
I soared my wings upon the high heavens
Melodies of an angel harp welcomed my presence

My life is Pure and White
Where my heart now remained and will always remained pure to that special person
And all the puzzles and riddles found their answers from their rightful owner
Forgetting every unhappy and sorrowful memories of the pass
I walked upon the path covered with crimson red roses and snowy white daisies
Embracing my beloved one in the very end of the flower covered path

^_^

As for me, nothing extraordinary..But still a rejoiceful day!!

3

is the numba of days
i av to wait
where i can release my anger
by consuming gud food
lol
but i ma gonna control
not much time till 1st dec
i can do it
no matter wat
i won't fail dis time
90-95kg is not a dream
is a reality awaiting me to accomplish
^^


why this picture??

without music, my life today will be so dry and harsh.
thank you music.
you spiced up my boring life
when i av to do my my bloody scientific paper
about omega 3 fatty acid..
zz..
still gonna continue with it though, but i ma glad u r always wif me
my one and only true love
MuSiC
^^


this picture..put for fun..cute in someway, and i know u like kitty ^^

highlight of the day.
talk to ma potential future cozie-in-law on skype for 2 hours..
wow tats bloody long man!!!
but we din't get bored for some reason, have a lot of topic to chat (although most of the time i ma talking zz)
nice nice, looking forward to chat again next time yar~~
but maybe not tat long next time lur..
got tones of hw..
zz

kk
gtg
more hw to do..
music on!!~~

signed off**~^

Today is special..Totally special!!

Why today so speical
Coz it is specially dedicated to ma sc!!
Congratulations on achieving your mark in your trial exam, I know that you can do it, regardless of anything..
So I wanna give you a big huggg~~

shh....im coming from behind...
GOTCHA!!!!
^^

But you are so far away from CND....
So...


lol~~
I hope you like this...
Take care yar, the big one(SPM)is around the corner, and I am sure you will succeed again.
Remember, motivation and concentration is your key to success..
^^

thanksgiving...wif no gud food!!!

4

4 days to go. A silent whisper skimmed through his mind. Another 4 days, He will be released of this curse, the curse of D-Tox. All food will be available for him. But from what he learn from D-Tox, a healthy eating habit is always preferable. So cut down all the sugary, sweet, fatty food products. Have salad everyday and only spoil himself on holidays that require a lot of eating. And also, milk everyday finally ^^

Thanksgiving, or Thanksgiving Day, is a traditional North American holiday, which is a form of harvest festival. It is an annual one-day holiday to give thanks to for the things one has at the close of the harvest season and is celebrated on the 2nd Monday of October. Usually on this day, people will go out gather in one's place, having turkey dinner, or some sort of "pot-luck" where everyone bring their food and share with the crowd..

So, left pity Brian, facing his laptop screen, doing a scientific research on Omega-3 fatty acid on end renal (kidney) disease.. Also he is under D-Tox program, prohibiting him from eating all the great food around. He can actually curi-curi makan one, but he choose not to. Determination and motivation is the key to succeed in this cleansing mission. What he ate today is rather interesting, 50% of the meal consist of FISH!!!
Ok so here is the dinner line-up and a picture illustrating it:

1/2 bowl of Brown Rice
1/2 bowl of Baby Spinach
1/4 bowl of Pink Salmon (from can)
1/4 bowl of Basa Fillet (hand baked himself, seasoned with white pepper, olive oil and onion!!!)
1 big glass of water

Healthy and hearty dinner he supposed.


this is what he became after all day study..not cool anymore

>.< boring thanksgiving, but still he is blessed with a lot of things.
He awaits to tell SS of a good news..
Patience, is all he needs for now..

knock knock..
duty calls, more study to go..
he gtg..
ciaozz..

signed off**~^

nerd mode commencing..

5

5 is the number today
5 more days..
then can drink as much milk as i want ady..
love to drink milk so much..
drink milk like drink water..
lol..
that explains why my bone density is so high, reaching an unbelievable 104kgs atm..
zz..


nerds
you cannot kill what already has no life

tmr, nerd mode is gonna activated..
today still slack for a little..
but not for tmr..
tmr gonna activate the ultimate nerd mode..
find articles
do ice cream class lab report
do some research on sensory evaluation paper..
wow..
many thing to do..
have to gambateh oo miself..
^^
prob still gonna o9 to chat..but only to some people..
everyone bz..
and someone also in nerd mode..
shh..
av to study hard..
av to do assignment..
av to do lab report..
><

but nyways..
2day quite happy..
slim down 7kgs..
face got become slightly sharper..
tummy also not tat huge..
got lost abit of the fats..
can feel it..
feel happy when ppl say..
BRIAN, you look slimmer..
thanks guys..
=)

k..
gtg, ciaozz~~

Signed off**~^